I haven't posted in a few days because the sickness that is traveling through my house has knocked my socks off! I decided to post this for all of you that are always so concerned that I might come in contact with "evil" spirits. As I've mentioned before, I know that I'm protected and while there might be malevolent spirits out there, I am no more likely to encounter them than I am a malevolent person. Plus, right in the beginning the gold angel that appeared to me assured me that I would always be protected and I believe him.

Yesterday I thought that I was better, but by 7:30 last night I just couldn't stay awake anymore. (A sincere thank you to my dear husband who corralled all the kids and finished up the night.) I went to bed, but sleep eluded me due to my congestion and sore throat. I felt disoriented as I drifted in and out of fitful sleep. The noise of my household seemed very far away as if I wasn't really in the house and at the same time I felt like I wasn't really in the world of sleep because I could still hear the kids in the distance. I also knew that I had a fever.

I have no idea what time that I finally fell completely asleep, but when I did it felt like what people describe as lucid dreaming. The only difference was that I wasn't lucidly dreaming about my household, but about the spirits. For the first time I felt scared. There were beings that came close to me and looked at first like the beloved angels that I have encountered, but as they approached they quickly changed into all sorts of weird and awful things! The gold angel was there (he had previously given me his name as Sandifer) and the red angel that I had encountered with regard to my children as well as many other angels. I could tell the difference in the spirits by how they felt, but it was all going very fast and my fuzzy mind was unclear and that frightened me. I didn't feel alert or sharp as I usually do when I communicate with spirits and for this reason I felt out of control. I think that because I was NOT as alert, the dark spirits had more of an opportunity to come close to me. Maybe.

It seemed less like the dark spirits were attacking me than like they wanted something from me. The angels never let them get very close, but everything was going on quickly around me and it was like too much stimulation. These "dreams" went on all night. At one point I heard my youngest child crying and I kept telling my body to go get him, but I just couldn't move. It felt like I was partly in my bedroom and partly still in the world of the spirits. It was not a comfortable feeling.

When I woke up this morning, I felt just as exhausted as I did when I went to bed last night. My mother-in-law is kindly coming to my house today to stay with the babies while I take a nap. I'm hoping that it will be more restful. Many blessings.
Cheryl